F*ck it - I Quit! (And I Feel Justified Doing it)

I Quit, and I'm embracing the fact that I'm free!

One step closer to the end of 2025, and you know what - I Quit.

I've been doing this writing thing for a bit of time, always from a place of care and willingness to share.

But sometimes it's been for the wrong reasons. I'd focus so much on being seen and heard to the point that I would be disgusted even with putting myself out there.  Throwing out post after post saying: "Hey check out the WRITEntanglement," only to be ignored by hundreds upon thousands for more entertaining content.

So, I Quit.

How fitting it is to look in the mirror and throw up a middle finger to my old self that continued to weave its way into my new masks of what I thought would be an authentic version of myself. But truth be told, the mask was just to look cool. To fit in. To be like everyone else out there doing what I feel is my purpose - to write my form of truth.

Why Quit Now? 

I didn't feel right becoming who I thought I was supposed to. A guy from the streets of New York flapping his gums about his life for the sake of NOT feeling utterly alone. I did it for people to see me, to like me. To go "oh shit. He's like me. He understands what I'm going through." 

To get people to listen and engage with me.

I focused so much on it that I decided let me be ambitious and start my blog on my own domain. Cause fuck it, right? That's what successful people do - they take calculated risks. But deep down, I felt like the ambition to get approval from others...to be promoted by others was a snare trap. 

I've been evaluating my life and my financial situation and realize without grinding myself into the dirt out of desperation, and a move on the horizon, I could not sustain the trajectory I shot for. I couldn't sustain the flashy appearance of the WRITEntanglement, even though I loved it! I loved the design and the feel of it, but it overshadowed the writing- what I actually worked hard to create. 

I backed myself into a corner my last evolution, and something in me was saying release it all. 

Relinquish the hold you've placed on yourself. 

Go Back to the Basics.

Don't give a fuck about a flashy appearance.

Focus on your writing, not an image they will probably ignore.  

Make your mistakes; embrace them.

And so, I made a vow to just QUIT-Again. 

Quitting isn't The End

I have a long history of quitting. Some will say that I quit when the going got tough, a shame to say when you've served this nation with honor and loyalty. 

So close and yet so far because I quit.

But I know something about quitting and why I do it now vs when I was younger.

I quit to evolve.

To quit is to take a knee, not to give up what I know is my purpose - to write to enlighten and help myself and those around me living a human experience. To use my experiences, intellect, and wits to get someone to see a different perspective. But mostly to help myself process the complexities of life itself and adjust when needed. 

From 2020 forward, I've done quite a bit of quitting, and at times it's been difficult to accept because I placed the expectations on myself to be what was needed for the outside world.

I was expected at this age - at this point in my life - to be successful. 

I was supposed to be a published author ages ago. 

I was supposed to have a huge community of people behind me because I provided a service, even though it's not niche down or captivating enough.  

But all of those things, methods and all, left me in chains. The chains of performance, and I've learned that I no longer want to live or move in that way. Its my time, and to evolve I had to let go - to QUIT. 

So What Now?

I've decided to no longer be Entangled with what I WRITE. I'm freeing myself from my own shackles. 

I don't want to be known as a flashy Writer. I want the Writing to speak for itself.

I don't want my writing to be an afterthought, so I am starting again bare-boned. 

I want to be found rather than have my content forced on anyone.

I want to speak freely about themes from everyday life as I see it-

The Inner Journey.

Emotional Alchemy.

Mental Well-being.

Connections - Romantic and Otherwise. 

Social Norms - Questioning, Challenging, and Understanding.  

These will always be my tenants to what I create, with a flair on lessons learned so that others won't have to find out the hard way. I aim to challenge and to change, especially myself. If anyone comes along and is supportive, it's always welcome. I'm open to engagement and conversation even if what I write may be of a different interpretation.

Complex Compositions is the Next Evolution  

My complexity is my authenticity. These compositions that follow will document how I interpret the world in hopes of understanding what lays beneath for myself and others. This will be an unfiltered and unscripted space for me to throw my innermost thoughts and feelings out.

There will be moments of cheer, and melancholy moments of reflection, because life is full of both.

There will be moments where I may lash out at the world and how society treats certain issues, and others where I just embrace what is.

Though I'd like to write something here regularly, I will write when the timing is right. 

When my intuition guides me to put out something that I or the rest of the world, may need. 

I want to try different things so this will not be your standard, cute, and organized website with all the bells and whistles to impress the masses. I am learning as I go, and that is okay. I have to remind myself that everyday.

As the banner dictates, these are for the outcasts, for those finding their own way even when being cast away for their appearances or practices that differ from others. I write for you, and I write for me as well.

You'll see new posts as well as updated re-releases from my previous postings on the WRITEntanglement. I hope that you will embrace the truth within them.

I am the Ronin that Writes. 

I just Quit and I feel justified doing it as I evolve yet again.  

 

#IAmRonin #Outcasts #OpenLoops #StillHere #QuittingIsFreedom

Notes from the Field - Is there something you quit that you feel liberated by? Do you feel guilty for disappointing yourself or someone else for walking away from a commitment you thought would work out? I'd love to hear from you in the comments!